It's Ok to Be Alone Sometimes...

Hi Loves, it's a Friday evening and I've decided to write a little something because I'm in my thoughts. By no means am I saying this because I know everything when it comes to relationships, friendships, etc. I don't. I'm just explaining things that I've seen and gone through so far in my life.

When I was a little girl, I hated being alone...but being an only child (on my mom side), I had to cope with the loneliness. My coping method was my GameBoy and anime. I had friends in elementary and middle school though, some were cool and other were backstabbers but that's life. As I got older, I realized that everyone's not for me. Meaning that they're either not happy for me on being successful or supporting me, or whatever. Despite me doing the complete opposite. The loneliness, however, was always going to be there, creeping back up every time I pushed it away.

When I met some of my best friends, I didn't have any expectations. I believe that if you have expectations for certain things, you'll end up disappointed. A LOT.  I've been disappointed a ton, but in the end, I had to keep it moving and this took some growing up to do. In high school, I didn't feel like I belonged at all. I went to 2 schools, and never felt like I belonged in any one group. I guess because I was cool with everyone, but I floated around all the time. Sometimes, it didn't feel right. Have you ever felt lonely in a crowded room? The feeling can be a bit scary.  Now that I'm in my early 20s, being alone isn't so bad. I learned that when I transferred to my university from community college. My community college felt like a family, my friends and I were so close knit but going to a university...well getting used to being alone majority of your days is definitely a HUGE survival tip. With all the school work and studying your brains off until they fall out of your skull, you'll be able to adjust to the loneliness. Then again, it's not considered loneliness anymore. I consider it being independent. My friends and I are all extremely busy now, we can't figure out a day to hang out and have fun. That's ok because we're adulting, even if we don't like to admit it (haha). Being independent by any means is a step in the right direction and you have to make some sacrifices along the way (yes this means your social life). Eventually, everything will work out. If it doesn't, it sucks but keep rolling with the punches...

I hope you've enjoyed this read.