Losing 30+ pounds...

It's been a while since I've done a post about how I've been in the gym. I thought it would be a good time as ever to explain my thought process, my goals, etc. on weight loss.

I'm going to be honest, I kept putting this post off for as long as possible because my weight loss goals are personal and making them public opens me up to criticism (in any way). However, I've decided to say f*ck it and write about this. For people who know me, I'm a proud plus-size young woman, but I have negative thoughts and insecurities (who doesn't?). I'm trying to get to a place where I feel the most confident during most days. I experience ups and downs just as much as the next person, but certain habits that I used to have when I was in my late teens have a tendency to pop up again... and I don't want to form the old habits again. (If you didn't read "My Response to 'Dear Fat People'", you can read it here. It gives some context.)

Anyway here's some information that I didn't provide in my first health post ("30+ Days with Activate Body"):
My heaviest weight: 315 lbs
My weight when I joined Activate Body (AB) (March 22, 2017): 309 lbs

  This was a picture from winter 2014 and it was taken after a choir performance on campus (sorry for the bad quality!). I'm not sure if anyone can tell but my face was a lot chubbier back then. I felt if the scarf was choking me to death...

This was a picture from winter 2014 and it was taken after a choir performance on campus (sorry for the bad quality!). I'm not sure if anyone can tell but my face was a lot chubbier back then. I felt if the scarf was choking me to death...

During my college semesters, I would lose between 2-5lbs because of me walking around campus from time to time. Even in the summer of 2014, I was actually working out two times a week and had gained muscle, but I barely lost any weight and it was probably due to my diet. That's where I needed help the most, and some people had told me to count calories, but I tried that and hated it. I can say that now I am counting calories and it's not as bad as when I was doing it on my own. I'm not sure if it's the price tag that's on my gym membership with AB but I appreciate it now than I did a few years ago.

Calorie count (July 2017): 1650
Calorie count (present): 1500* (*I did try 1450 but it just wasn't working for me plus I also do intermittent fasting)

  This was taken on July 26, 2017. I had just started to count calories after going off of a "habit" based diet. This meant that I was trying to incorporate new habits into my eating habits, like limiting sodas, drinking more water and eating more veggies.

This was taken on July 26, 2017. I had just started to count calories after going off of a "habit" based diet. This meant that I was trying to incorporate new habits into my eating habits, like limiting sodas, drinking more water and eating more veggies.

  This was taken on October 28, 2017. I had been counting calories for a couple of months and had lost 10 lbs. Might be hard to tell in the photo!

This was taken on October 28, 2017. I had been counting calories for a couple of months and had lost 10 lbs. Might be hard to tell in the photo!

I wanted to lose 30 lbs/get under 280 lbs by graduation which was on December 21, 2017. I was trying to do a bit of cardio (like walking on the treadmill) outside of my time at AB. So I decided to join Planet Fitness (PF) back in July 2017 and I would go about 1-2 times a week when possible. This was extremely difficult during my final semester since I was stressed out all the time and for about a month I didn't go to PF at all. Once I set aside the stress, I was able to go back at least once a week. My nutrition team knew of my weight goal and wanted me to know that the goal could be accomplished but there was a possibility that it could happen on a later date.

Weight before graduation (December 16, 2017): 279.2 lbs
Weight now (Jan 13): 275.8 lbs


So I've lost about 33.2 lbs since March 2017, which exceeds my mini goal. Altogether, I have three goals--mini: 30 lbs; ultimate: 50 lbs; super ultimate: 100 lbs. I'm still eating whatever I want but I've done a better job to limit my soda intake, especially dark sodas and drink more water. Sweet tea has become a kryptonite and pizza and ice cream are the loves of my life. Now I'm trying to continue my motivation, but I'm starting to get lazy, which f*cking sucks. However, after taking a couple weeks off because I got sick during the holidays, I'm getting back into the swing of things. Here's to hoping that me and everyone else on a health/weight loss journey can make it through the end of January...