Why I Haven't Been Posting...

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Hi guys...

It's been a long time since I've posted anything. If you follow me on any of my social media accounts, I haven't really posted/uploaded anything on them either. I've been so exhausted lately...

Since I graduated in December, I thought I had to hurry and find a job so that in six months I wouldn't be panicking about my college loans and ruin my credit. I barely took a week off before I was going to interviews and applying for positions. Luckily, I got a part-time job in the middle of February. However, I felt like the money wasn't enough, so I decided to get a second job at the end of April. Neither of the positions is what I really want to do, but yet again I'm blessed to have two jobs... At the end of the day, I get one day off a week, but I still show up to my place of work on that day too. I'm literally running on empty, to be honest. I don't accrue any paid-time off or sick days, meaning if I don't work, I don't get paid which really sucks lol. Besides working and dealing with stuff at home, I start grad school in the fall, which makes me very anxious to accept any more loans (I still haven't finalized the paperwork).

When I decided to change this website, I wanted to post new topics and have discussions on important things like mental health issues and what's going on in our society. However, most of the time I don't want to stare at a computer while I'm home, I barely want to stare at one while I'm working while with dealing with people who bug the hell out of me...It's a lot... Honestly, I'm bored and annoyed and irritated and sad... I feel like I'm stuck and unsure of things, even though I've been working at these places for a few months. I know to keep my head down and just grind through it but that doesn't really resolve the emotions that I'm feeling. At this point, I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm going insane...